Monday, January 22, 2007

Annoying Kids

These kids are going on my nerves!!!
I'm helping two kids (a boy and a girl) to become better in English and most of the time they are quite nice, but today they have been really terrible.
The boy had to learn his vocabularies while the girl had to correct her English test and she needed my help to do that. But each time I tried to help or correct her she just didn't listen.
They kept talking the whole time. When I said "Stop talking", they just stopped for a little while. And then they started talking again. That is one reason why I never wanna become a teacher, 'cause if I can't even handle two teenagers how shall I handle 30?
Normally I really like to help them, but sometimes I just wish that I have to do it never again! In a couple of month I don't have to, 'cause after finishing school I'll leave my hometown and move to an other city to study there. And I don't know yet if I'm going to help some other kids over there, too. Maybe yes, maybe no!

"Study The Spirit"

I just spent my weekend getting lots of information about studying theology. It might be the right thing for me, but I'm not sure ...
What about my chances to get a job? OK, they said it's easy to get a job, here in Lower-Saxony, but I don't wanna stay here! I wanna live in Canada, no matter which part. :)
What shall I do if I don't study theology? I thought about aviation- and space technique. But I don't know if I'm really the scientific type or if I'm the social scientist?
My Dad says that it would be easier to find a job as an engineer than as a pastor. Mum says that she thinks theology would probably make me happier and the study would be easier, but at the moment she can't imagine me on a pulpit.
And me? I have no idea ... My heart says theology but my mind says think about everything, try to find out what you really want and remember that going to Canada will be a lot easier if you're an engineer.
But there are all these questions in my head as well and I can't answer them: Will I manage the study, no matter whet I'm doing? What will be easier for me? What do I wanna do for the rest of my life? What do I imagine what I'll do if I'm an engineer? what about my dream to go to Canada? ... There are so many questions in my head which I can't answer. And I start getting pretty confused! ?-(
I have to admit that I'm scared to make the wrong decision. May be I'll be happy as an pastor but what if I'm never able to go to Canada? Or I become an engineer in Canada but I hate my job? Which situation would make me happier? ... ?-(
Why does it have to be SO complicated? Why can't it be easier? I know life is never easy, but it would be nice if it is easy ...